*WARNING! CRINGEY POST!*
So I woke up this morning in a really positive attitude. I felt good about my current life situation, even though it’s not perfect. I had a good feeling about getting to where I want to be in the future. It seems as if I’m finally starting to figure out what I want to do with my life and that is such a great feeling.
But there is one thing that tends to hold me back and effect my confidence. Just one. And that’s worrying about what other people think.
I’ve touched on this a number of times before, but I really want to go into depth about it and update you today, as it’s something that I finally think I’m starting to overcome.
There have been numerous times in my life where I end up NOT doing something in fear of what other people will think of it. It’s those thoughts that are like “I can’t do that. What will people think?” or “Everyone is gonna think I’m so weird if I do that”. It’s just stupid. It’s like wasting away your life if you think like that. You could have an absolutely brilliant idea forming in your mind, but you choose to hide it away because of that reason? How will you EVER be happy?
I have FINALLYY decided not to care what anybody thinks of me. Yes, sometimes it gets the better of me and I close in on myself. It happens and it’ll probably happen again. on the other hand, I’m still gonna have the mindset not to worry about people’s opinions. I act like a complete nutter in public, I post the most awful snapchats on my story, I’m honest about the type of person I am, even though I have a complete cringe attack almost every single time. I laugh at myself. A LOT. And I don’t care. I go out with one of my best friends, Annalee, and we are first on the dance floor. Knees flying all over the place and we’re having the time of our lives. Other girls look at us and give us dirty looks, as if they’re thinking “What in God’s name are they doing?! They look pathetic” or that we’re showing off. This has actually happened numerous times. And here’s the thing…
I don’t care.
Because I am happy with myself. So, therefore, I don’t give a sh*tstick what anyone else has to say. I am my own person, I’m not trying to impress or live for someone else. What, you think I’m gonna act “normal” just to please some stranger? Nah.
What I’m trynna say is, no matter what you want to do with yourself, no matter the type of person you are or what you’re into, don’t hold back because of what other people are gonna think. So what? You could be completely different from everyone else in every way, but as long as you’re cool with that, nothing else should matter. They’re nothing to do with you. Feel your confidence build up because this is who you are. This is where you really need to be comfortable and content with yourself. Believe you can do it and go for it (cringe). I like to write and post things on a blog. And I enjoy it. And that’s all there is to it.
Ya feel me?