Do you ever have one of those days where your self-belief has fallen straight to zero?
Everything you make an attempt at just goes to shit. Doesn’t go right?
I’m with you.
Right now, in fact, I am with you.
I’ve had this struggle for quite some time now. A few years, I’d say. Since I left college.
I didn’t have a real passion for anything. Anything that I DID absolutely love, I decided not to go ahead with it because I felt that I wasn’t good enough…
Ah, there’s that phrase.
“Not being good enough”.
I hate that phrase. I want to burn it. I want to sh*t all over it (LOL).
For real though, I hate it. I hate when I don’t feel good enough, when I feel shit at everything, when I feel like a complete and utter failure in life. Like my life is going absolutely nowhere.
When I’m in my comfort zone, with my friends, or sometimes even by myself, my confidence is decent. A lot of the time, it’s up there.
But then, when I’m outside my comfort zone, like at work, sometimes it just falls right to the bottom of the line. And it’s so ridiculously shit, I start to get angry and disappointed in myself.
Today, I was just about done with it. I’ve decided to be completely done with this whole I can’t do anything, I have no confidence in myself, no self-belief bullshit.
I want to feel good about myself, I want to feel confident in what I’m good at. I want to feel confident in what I’m NOT so good at. I want to get rid of all the worries, all the panicking, all the nerves, all the anxiety, all the shaky hands, ALL OF IT.
I want to feel empowered. And CONFIDENT. And ACTUALLY HAVE BELIEF IN MYSELF.
Starting from today, I have decided to end this terrible war that goes on in my own little head. Maybe I’ll see a therapist, maybe I’ll figure it out on my own. but honestly, I refuse to be this way for much longer.
I’m gonna do whatever I can to give myself more belief. Belief that I can achieve something great, belief that I can do things, belief that I’m NOT a failure. At all.
I mean, what kinda self-love is that if you can’t even have self-belief or any confidence in yourself at all?